Outside of my pre-scheduled postings, I have not been present on my blog. My husband's sister passed away from a year and a half long battle with colon cancer. She lost her battle on the 26th, right in-between Thanksgiving and my son's birthday. The emotional roller coaster ride over the past 2 years had finally taken it's toll on me. I didn't realize I had been in denial over her illness, always thinking she'd get through it. Things I never did with her or say to her are now eating away at my soul. The gut wrenching sadness of not taking the kids to the hospital to see her even though my husband said not to. Now I face "healing" apart from my husband because he is back to Utah again. I am not writing this for sympathy but to reiterate that cliché "Don't put off til tomorrow what you can do today".
Kathy was a physician who always made time for her patients as well as her family and never put herself ahead of either. I hope to someday be a fraction of the selfless person she was and to forgive myself for not doing things with her that I should have. I thought that the events of 911 had taught me this, but apparantly I had lost sight of what was really important. I urge you to evaluate what is most important to you. Make this your life's priority and don't lose sight of it.
God bless you and your family this holiday season!
I am so sorry to read of your sister-in-laws passing. We have lost two of my husbands brothers this year, both to cancer and it is so heartbreaking. The one who lived close to us was such a big part of our lives. We miss him so much. It is so sad to face this Christmas without his smile and love let alone visits to his home. But beating yourself up over 'would have, could have, should haves' will drive you crazy. A support group in your area might be helpful in showing you how you can come to terms with your family's loss. I know there is a group in our town and it has helped some people so much. Don't stay home and try to 'just get over it', please reach out to someone who can help.
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Oh Tammy what a loss! I'm so sorry that you are having to deal with this on your own. It is always nice to have a shoulder to cry on. Thanks for the reminder to take the time to do the things that I know I should and often put off for another day. But please don't torture yourself either, she wouldn't want you too and I know that she loves you. I will pray for you during this difficult time! Take care sweet friend. My thoughts and prayers are with you! MUCH LOVE - Glora
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for the lose of your sister in law. When we lose someone we love sooo much it hurts sooo bad. I feel your pain, and am praying for you to recieve comfort. Yes we all need to take more time to "smell the roses" and put our priorities in order. Thank you for sharing your story.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry for your loss. I wll pray for you and your family.
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