Monday, December 12, 2011
Thank You For Your Patience
Outside of my pre-scheduled postings, I have not been present on my blog. My husband's sister passed away from a year and a half long battle with colon cancer. She lost her battle on the 26th, right in-between Thanksgiving and my son's birthday. The emotional roller coaster ride over the past 2 years had finally taken it's toll on me. I didn't realize I had been in denial over her illness, always thinking she'd get through it. Things I never did with her or say to her are now eating away at my soul. The gut wrenching sadness of not taking the kids to the hospital to see her even though my husband said not to. Now I face "healing" apart from my husband because he is back to Utah again. I am not writing this for sympathy but to reiterate that cliché "Don't put off til tomorrow what you can do today".
Kathy was a physician who always made time for her patients as well as her family and never put herself ahead of either. I hope to someday be a fraction of the selfless person she was and to forgive myself for not doing things with her that I should have. I thought that the events of 911 had taught me this, but apparantly I had lost sight of what was really important. I urge you to evaluate what is most important to you. Make this your life's priority and don't lose sight of it.
God bless you and your family this holiday season!
Posted by Tammy Schmitt at 6:05 AM